My doctor diagnosed me with anxiety. It’s horrible. I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest and like everything is closing in on me. But it explains a lot about me. But I told her I could handle it without meds because I don’t want to take them. She recommended that if I can handle it, don’t take them until I feel like it’s consuming my life. Fuck Anxiety
I never learn. I should have left things alone. Whirlwind of emotions right now. Talking to someone who ripped your heart out and into one million pieces is never a good idea. But I did learn that he thought I was the one who wanted to end things.
I just want to go out and get wasted, but nope! Everyone else wants to go fishing. Ugh
Its been 80 days and im over you. Im surprised. Finally realizing what is important to me, and sadly you never were. I hope we can be friends, like honestly just friends. I miss talking to you. You always knew how to make me smile, and i think i need a friend like you in my life right now.
With my cousin and my brother. Met up with this kid Danny from the dating website. He is super cute and he wants to hang out tomorrow :) i need to get back out there, in the dating field. Ive never dated people and have only had 2 relationships (which sucked) and were on and off for years. He was really sweet.
Signed up for plenty of fish. I need to meet a boy. Im doing fine in school and i just think i need to find someone to hang out with in my free time. Lots of cute guys already asking to go on a date… I guess we will see where this goes.
I thought i was over JC but i still think about him alot. But im staying strong and not contacting him.
I hardly ever go on tumblr anymore :/ just so busy with school and the app on my iphone is FOREVER slow!!!!! I have school all the time, have 2 part time jobs i should be starting next week and life will be great. I still kinda miss the boy i was talking to even though hes a jerk. But its not the kinda miss where you think about them all the time. Its just the kinda miss where when your bored and you wish you had someone to text about random things. Thats it.
Thats all for today. Ill try to get on more often. I know i miss my friends updates and im sure they miss mine.
And im surprised i dont miss you like i thought i would. I still think of you alot but that comes naturally after talking to you everyday for 6 months. Shocked things went the way they did but im over it and over you. Have a nice night
I wish i had a tv so i could watch the Olympic ceremonies :/ ugh i just want to watch swimming all day
Stole my favorite pillow… And my aunt wont mail it to me because she is keeping it hostage because she wants me to visit but between work and school i am never going to make it out there…. UGH! I cant sleep a full night with out it. No pillow is comfortable. I wake up a million times every night :/ who wants to buy me a new down feathered pillow??? I will love you FOREVER!!
Have i ever told you how much i hate talking in front of people… My final is a presentation on what motivates me. I would rather do a ten page multiple choice final. Dear lord. I am freaking out
My phone is gonna die on me soon. The home button is starting to stick.you have to hit it 50 times before it goes to the menu screen :/ i need it to last another 6 or 7 months ://